Britney Spears has said that she is "scared to do anything because I'm afraid I'll make a mistake" that might jeopardise moves to end her conservatorship, as preparations begin to terminate the legal arrangement that has allowed others to control her personal and financial affairs for thirteen years. She also says that she is "disgusted" by the US legal system that kept her under the guardianship for so long.
"I've waited so long to be free from the situation I'm in and now that it's here I'm scared to do anything because I'm afraid I'll make a mistake", she says in a new Instagram post. "For so many years I was always told if I succeeded at things, could end and it never did. I worked so hard but now that it's here and getting closer and closer to ending I'm very happy but there's a lot of things that scare me".
She particularly singles out the paparazzi, who she says seem to be attempting to goad her into an angry or erratic reaction by jumping out at her car from behind trees. "The paps run through the trees and onto the road when I drive home and it's creepy ... I don't like that they try to scare me and jump out like they do, it's like they want me to do something crazy".
"I started experiencing that when I got the keys to my car for the first time four months ago", she says. "I haven't done anything to be treated the way I have for the past thirteen years. I'm disgusted with the system and wish I lived in another country".
However, she adds that she is now making an effort to "find more joy in life" - including celebrating Christmas early and avoiding the music industry altogether. She does have a warning for her family though - whom she has previously criticised for their actions during her conservatorship - saying: "Lord have mercy on my family's souls if I ever do an interview".